T.G.I.F!!

THANK GOODNESS ITS FRIDAY. I WAS SO ANXIOUS TO GET HOME AND SEE MY GRACIE GIRL. I NEVER REALLY GOT UPSET WHEN I HAD TO GO BACK TO WORK. I KNEW I HAD TO AND I KNEW SHE WAS IN GOOD HANDS WITH HER DADDY ALL DAY. BUT TODAY THOUGH...TODAY I COULDN'T SIT STILL WAITING TO GET HOME AND SEE HER AND PLAY WITH HER. A FRIEND OF MINE SAID IN HER BLOG A FEW WEEKS AGO..."HOW BORING LIFE MUST HAVE BEEN BEFORE MOTHERHOOD"..ID SAY I HAVE TO AGREE.
MY STEPMOM JUST CALLED AND ASKED WHERE I GOT THE NAME "JOHN MICHAEL" FROM. WILL AND I JUST THOUGHT OF IT OFF THE TOP OF OUR HEADS BUT SHE JUST INFORMED ME THAT THEY ARE MY BROTHER AND MY STEPBROTHER'S MIDDLE NAMES. COOL HUH? OR BAD RATHER...SEEING AS HOW I DIDNT EVEN KNOW MY OWN STEPBBROTHERS MIDDLE NAME!! SHEESH!



OH YEAH I NEED TO SAY SOMETHING ABOUT NANA. SHES HAVING SOME ISSUES SINCE WE TALK ABOUT MAWMAW AND PAW PAW ALL THE TIME.EVEN THOUGH THEY LIVE FAR AWAY AND DONT GET TO SEE GRACIE EVERY DAY LIKE NANA CAN.
GRACIE WENT TO NANA'S WORK TODAY AND SAW THE TRAINS GO BY AND PLAYED IN NANAS LAP WHILE SHE WORKED ON THE COMPUTER AT THE TRAIN STATION. NANA LOVES TRAINS BUT I DONT. I HATE THEM ACTUALLY. THE FIRST OUTFIT SHE BOUGHT GRACIE WAS A TRAIN SLEEPER TAHT JUS ABOUT DOESN'T FIT ANYMORE. THIS CHILD IS GROWING BY LEAPS AND BOUNDS. I LOVE BEING A MOM. HOW CAN SOMEONE NOT WANT TO HAVE A CHILD/BE A MOM? ITS EVERY WOMAN'S GOD GIVEN ABILITY TO CARRY A NEW LIFE FOR TEN MONTHS INSIDE OF THEM AND CREATE A BOND UNLIKE ANY OTHER. MOMMAS AND BABIES HAVE A CLOSENESS THAT A CHILD AND THEIR FATHER CAN NEVER HAVE. I LOVE MY LITTLE GIRL SO MUCH MORE THAN I COULD HAVE EVER IMAGINED. SHE IS MY WORLD. WHAT WAS MY LIFE LIKE BEFORE HER? I HONESTLY DON'T REMEMBER. SHE AND HER DADDY ARE MY ENTIRE WORLD. (WELL, BESIDES GOD, NANA & PAPA, MAWMAW & PAWPAW AND OTHER VARIOUS FAMILY MEMBERS)

YA KNOW I REALLY DO LOVE EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE...EXCEPT FOR ONE THING... I AM SUPER LAZY WHEN IT COMES TO HOUSEWORK AND I WISH I WEREN'T. I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I WANT/NEED TO DO AND I JUS HAVE ZERO AMBITION TO GET THEM DONE. AS SOON AS I GET DONE WRITING THIS BLOG, I'M GONNA COME UP WITH A GAME PLAN TO GET THIS HOUSE ORGANIZED AND MAKE SURE IT STAYS THAT WAY. I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH A BEAUTIFUL HOME BIG ENOUGH FOR OUR FAMILY EVEN IF IT GROWS BY ONE MORE IN THE FUTURE.

I STILL LIKE MY JOB. I LIKE GETTING UP IN THE MORNING AND GOING TO WORK.. WASN'T LIKE THAT AT MY OTHER JOB. JESSICA HAD AN INTERVIEW AT MY WORK FOR A POSITION THERE. SHE ACTED EXCITED, BUT I'M NOT SO SURE SHE IS. I REALLY DON'T THINK DUCC WIL BE AROUND MUCH LONGER AT ALL AND IF SHE DOESN'T ACCEPT THIS POSITION, SHE NEEDS TO LOOK SOMEWHERE ELSE WHILE SHE HAS THE CHANCE. I'D SURE HATE FOR HER TO NOT HAVE AN INCOME WHEN THEY SHUT DOWN SUDDENLY. GOD DOESN'T OPEN DOORS FOR NO REASON. THERE WAS A REASON THAT MY BOSS SUGGESTED SHE COME IN, I DIDN'T ASK HIM TO INTERVIEW HER..IT WAS PURELY HIS IDEA. ANYWAY, PRAY FOR HER THAT SHE FINDS A STABLE JOB. I CAN'T REALLY SAY I KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO WORK AT A PLACE WHERE YOU DON'T KNOW IF YOUR JOB WILL BE THERE THE NEXT DAY.
WE ALL ASSUMED IT BEFORE I WENT ON MATERNITY LEAVE BUT WE DIDNT REALLY THINK IT WOULD BE THIS SOON. GOD SENT ME TO THIS NEW JOB FOR A REASON. HE HAS TAKEN SUCH GREAT CARE OF US SINCE THE BOYS ACCIDENT AS WELL. WE HAD NO MONEY COMING IN UNTIL TODAY AND WE'VE NOT HAD TO WORRY ABOUT HOW OUR BILLS WERE GOING TO BE PAID. WE HAVE FOUND A WAY EVER SINCE THE ACCIDENT BC OF GOD. HE IS AMAZING. IF I DIED TODAY I BELIEVE I'D GO TO HEAVEN, I JUST DON'T WANT TO GO RIGHT YET. I WANNA SEE MY BABY GIRL GROW UP. THE TWO HARDEST THINGS FOR ME TO ACCEPT ARE: KNOWING THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS IN GOD'S GOOD AND PERFECT TIME AND LETTING GOD HAVE HIS WAY WITH MY LIFE.
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OK SO ANYWAY AFTER ALL THAT HERE ARE SOME PICS OF MY GORGEOUS DAUGHTER. WHAT CAN I SAY? IM BIASED:) PS THIS IS MY FAVORITE PICTURE OF GRACIE AND HER PAWPAW:) HAPPY FATHERS DAY PAWPAW!! I MISS YOU (<--GRACIE TOLD ME TO TELL YOU HEHE